After facing with a deep emotinal turbulence, I have learned that I know NOTHING. I will go on with life. I have never known ANYTHING about Keanu Reeves. From now on, life is the same book for me. I do not know his dark side. I know Keanu as an actor. He is a gentleman and a lonely man, but he lives in America. We had never EVER met. We are just strangers.
Life goes on the same due to the fact I had lived with mysterious occurences in my life for 35 years. I have to live more 35 years like that. I know NOTHING about the whole universe. I do not think even GOD can help me, either. If I have a soul, it is not God's willing at all. If I have a real SOUL, I will appreciate that I have one and I will never CROSS MY LIMITS. I hope other one never crosses his limits, too. That is all. If there is a universal POWER, I am sure that I will come out of this DARK cycle.
As spring has ARRIVED, it is the time to cleanse my SPIRIT. I will BE OK, but I just request that No one should check me out if I am fine or depressed. Thanks a lot. I do not think that I evolved even a little bit. I am the OLD me, but I am just ME. I have the control of my own MIND and I RULE OUT THE EVERYTHING that I resolved. Therefore, I'm mentally FINE and I'm emotionally strong. If I work, I will work. If not, I will not work. That is not my priority.
To the past memories, I have LEARNED nothing AT ALL. Regarding the life ITSELF, I'm a heavy BAGGAGE to be TOGETHER.
THE END!!!
Finally, I have resolved the whole missing pieces regarding my weird LIFE. Honestly, it does not HURT even a little bit due to the fact that I ALWAYS SEEK FOR THE TRUTH!!! This beginning seems like another cliche, but it is the actual fact pertaining to the curved roads in my life. Period, period, period...
The complete puzzle seems like a dark ring in which I had been swept away for many years. Notably, it is the time that I should forgive EVERYTHING and I should just erase the PAST. The past cannot be erased EVER, but it can be burried into a locked room. Does it HURT? It does not hurt at all because it was a vicious cycle in my hopeless life...
As my ex BOYFRIEND turned out the same WEIRD and INSANE man, I'M REALLY OUT OF HIS LIFE FOREVER. I should have become vindictive, but I just feel relieved and I will never contact with this BRAINLESS man anymore...
From now on, I talk with NOBODY. THAT FEELS FANTASTIC... Furthermore, I also realized that THE INSANE REEVES KNOWS ME FROM BILKENT!!! Of course, I got it... Now that I'm fully aware of all the things that are connected with K, I LEAVE K ALONE. It seems that he never has left me ALONE... He should learn how to survive without ME... ONE DAY, I WILL LEARN HOW HE KNOWS ME FROM BILKENT, TOO...
Between, LA LA LAND is a disastrous movie for ME. FOR THE REST OF THE WORLD, IT CAN BE THE BEST BEST BEST MUSICAL EVER... WHO CARES? LOL... I HATED TO SEE WATCH MY OWN STORY IN THE MOVIE... IT MEANS NOTHING... I NEVER LOVED EVEN YASIR. I PLAYED WITH YASIR AND I ALWAYS FELT THAT THERE WAS SOMETHING WEIRD ABOUT YASIR. EVEN YOUR YASIR CHARACTER HAD FAILED FOR ME TO BE IN LOVE...
You know very WELL that I do not love YOU anymore... YOU ARE AWARE OF THIS FACT AND YOU HOLD ME IN A CRAZY WAY IN MY BED WHEN I AM HALF SLEEPING OR FULLY AWAKE. KEEP ON HOLDING TIGHT, BUT LOVE HAS ENDED... IF IT WAS AN EVERLASTING LOVE, I WOULD STILL BE LOVING YOU...
Hey DUDE, LISTEN CAREFULLY!!! I will never GROW UP and we will never be TOGETHER.
STAY AWAY FROM MY LIFE, MY BED, MY ASTRAL ZONE AND FIND A NEW GIRL TO BE AROUND WITH YOUR DIFFERENT FACE AND BODY MASKS... THIS IS THE REAL END...
I hated all CHARACTERS and I NEVER LOVED YOU...
Goodbye EX FELLOW...
I hope that you will achieve to stay away from ME for the rest of your LONELY LIFE...
I don't mind to PURSUE A LONELY LIFE...
SIGNIFICANT PS: OMG!!! OMG!!! OMG!!! Now, I HAD FOUND that HOW U MET ME. LET ME REFRESH YOUR DUMB MEMORY BRO REEVES...:))))
IN 2000, WHEN I WAS 18 YEARS OLD, YOU HAD SEEN ME ON THE CAMPUS BUS IN BILKENT WITH MY PARENTS... LOL... IT WAS AN INSTANT CONNECTION DUDE... NOW I GET THAT WHY THAT CANADIAN MAN WAS ALWAYS SMILING AT ME AND I WAS ALWAYS AFTER HIM... LOOOOOOOOOL... I DID MY BEST TO GET ONE LESSON FROM HIM... AWWWWWWWWWWW HOW PATHETHIC I WAS... LOOOOOOOOOOL... HOWEVER, I GOT ONE LESSON FROM YOU REEVES BABY... AND IN YOUR OFFICE ROOM, YOU WERE PRAISING ME A LOT... YOU WERE IN DISGUISE, BUT YES YES YES I REALLY LOVED YOU SO MUCH...
BYE DUDE...
I GUESS IT IS THE TIME TO MOVE ON...
This is my last writing on this FUCKED UP BLOG!!! There are BRUTAL facts that I learned through my own POWER and the K connection... LET ME SPIT all these SHITS OUT!!! Of course, everything makes sense so well now. First of all, there are some more UK mysteries that I figured out EXCEPT sarah BITCH. FUCK SARAH, I NEVER LOVED HER AS A HUMAN BEING!!!
There was a chinese girl I had been friends and SHE WAS the INSANE MAN, too. I figured out this, too. THIS SUCKS BECAUSE THIS INSANE MAN WAS IN DISGUISE AS A CHINESE GIRL TO GET CLOSE TO ME. I will never FORGIVE THIS AS I WILL NEVER FORGIVE SARAH BITCH...
The man whom looked like the actor DOWNEY JOHNSON was Keanu Reeves, too. He was my annoying and perverted flight company. He was in disguise as Downey's DOUBLE... This was a game. This means NOTHING... However, K person appeared again as another character with a fake MASK...
The brutal FACTS are endless... I HATE YOU SO MUCH NOW. I DISGUST WITH YOU INSANELY NOW... I WILL NEVER TALK TO YOU AGAIN UNTILL I PASS AWAY. This is the WORST thing you did TO ME. The CRAZY K was my EX BOYFRIEND whom I DATED in real life in 2004. The truth has BITTEN you from YOUR DEEPEST WEAPON OF BEING IN DISGUISE at the moment... DO NOT THINK THAT I WILL FORGIVE THIS...
This is a life lesson and I WILL NEVER FORGIVE that YOU ENTERED INTO MY LIFE AS A REAL BOYFRIEND WITH A PROFESSIONAL FACE MASK AND YOU STAYED WITH ME FOR MANY YEARS UNDER DIFFERENT ONLINE CHARACTERS AND YOU GOT EXTREMELY CLOSE TO ME WITH YOUR FAKE FEMALE IDENTITIES...
Leave MY LIFE completely and I LEAVE YOUR LIFE COMPLETELY, TOO.
Forget what IT IS... Forget What WE FEEL FOR EACH OTHER... Forget ME and simpley FORGET MY FACE...
You are just a faceless MAN, NOTHING MORE...
Be happy in your own FANTASTIC WORLD. Please FORGET what WE HAD BEEN THROUGH and PLEASE FORGET MY NAME...
GOOD BYE...
Let us BOTH Let GO one another... Thank YOU...
Look, this is my LAST writing on my blog and cyber life... I had found out who sarah BITCH is... To be honest, UK adventures are OVER... I will never and ever FORGIVE such a thing... No wonder, SARAH BITCH WAS WEIRD... She was like a DOG and at the end SHE SHOUTED AS FOLLOWS: FUCK YOU....
I had found out the real secret about Brunel, too. As I had learned everything, I will really MOVE ON. Regarding my EX BOYFRIEND, I will learn the real truth about him, too. Before I pass away I will learn if he really loved me or no. I will learn the real connection between YOU AND MY EX BF.
Well, that programme was a WASTE and my master degree remains with ME forever as my UNIVERSITY DEGREE. I guess they are both worthless as YOU.... Well, well, well, I DO NOT LOVE YOU ANYMORE... This is a FACT...
Between, the day I vomitted by leaving the class a few times, I had realized that SARAH BITCH STARTED TO GET WORRIED... WHO CARES? I vomitted and the day after I travelled to Turkey. When I was about to faint in the class, NOBODY CARED... SARAH would care if I fainted. LOOK, THIS STUPID UK IS OVER AND I HAVE GOT THE DEGREE... STAY AWAY FROM MY LIFE BECAUSE THIS TIME I AM NOT RUNNING AWAY. THIS TIME, I AM NOT MAD AT YOU. THIS TIME, I AM REALLY GOING AWAY.
About digesting everything, I WILL GET A PRIVATE MEDICAL HELP AND I WILL START MEDICATION. I WILL TAKE ANTIDEPRESSANTS BECAUSE I NEED TO SLEEP FOR HOURS TO NOT TO THINK ABOUT ALL THESE THINGS... About brazilian guy, I did not mind MUCH. IT WAS A GAME... With regard to SARAH BITCH, YOU WERE EXTREMELY CLOSE TO ME AND YOU STILL TRIED TO CONTROL MY BEHAVIOUR.
MY life has been like a TRUMAN SHOW.
Yet, MY SOUL will be FREE...
Even SARAH BITCH GOT CRAZY WITH ME AND LOST CONTROL WITH ME.
By the way, I GOT SARAH BITCH WAS YOU, TOO. THIS DID NOT MAKE ME INSANE, THIS GAVE ME COURAGE TO SEE A SHRINK. After breaking up with my ex, I had used happy pills for 8 months. Later, I WAS MUCH BETTER AND I ADMITTED THAT HE IS GONE FROM MY LIFE...
HAPPY PILLS FOR THE SPIRITUAL GIRL AND I WILL NEVER SHOW UP IN ANY ONLINE PLATFORM BECAUSE I WILL BE USING MY DEPRESSION PILLS TO FORGET EVERYTHING THAT MAKES ME REMEMBER Y-O-U.
Bye SARAH BITCH...
TRUE LOVE IS EXTREMELY SOMETHING YOU WILL REALLY NEVER UNDERSTAND AS A HUMAN BEING...
I wish you PEACE AND HAPPINESS...
I LET YOU GO BECAUSE I HAVE TO LET YOU GO. THANK YOU...
This is a real awakening time for me... In Uk, I was hanging out in a crazy and FREE way in London after submitting my dissertation. In october, before I returned back, I saw a rock band on air live music in the street. Actually, it was really late... Who cares? However, it had ben enlightened like a studio light... Well, something intrigued me THERE... Then, there was a man I saw. I suspected he is waiting for someone there... I said I hope he won't BOTHER me. There you go: BINGO!!!
He asked me to take a picture of him. I said fine... He said can you please take another... I said ok, but I do not take so well. I was being POLITE cos it is UK... LOL! He said please take a few... It's LONDON... OMG! Then, I did my job... He started to talk to me... I was extremely TIRED and SAD and depressed. I thought let me talk with him, better than having no FRIEND. He was extremely weird and he was in a very mysterious camouflage. I suspected that he might be a spy of the INSANE man. He kept talking and kept me busy. He hugged me... I said well, this guy does not let me GO. WEIRD... He non stop was telling me congratulations for your MASTER. He was hugging me a lot. I said what the heck is going on? This is Insane Man's stupid SPY. Then he swang his head with me during the music. He took a picture of ME AND HIM together, he kissed me on the cheek. I said this man IS INSANE MAN. Somehow I just felt it was HIM. I just had been quite, but he did not let me go anywhere... He actually did not allow me to RUN AWAY from him. Come on, he was all in disguise... He was all in black clothes.. His bearb was abnormally long and fake... I do not know what he did... He visited me in LONDON through a fake imaginary costume... His eye color was different, too. Of course, how can I say: Awwwwwwwwwww, you are an actor... Then we went to TESCO, he started to talk stupidly with me. He said why u do not drink beer? I said I do not want to drink. Actually, when he was with me in the rock band area, he was relaxed. Whatever he took, the impact of his energy pill was over. He looked for beers, then he said OK. I won't buy. I did not buy anything, too. He started to get extremely tense... I wanted to walk with him or go to a cafe. However, he rejected me and then he said he is going to his hotel. He invited ME. I said Nope...
Look, I am FULLY AWAKENED. Now, I get it was YOU... YOU ARE EXTREMELY CRAZY... Even for some minutes, I REALLY WAS HAPPY NEAR YOU... Thanks for visiting... You are a crazy MAN.
I am going forever. I had solved all the weird things in UK. Time to LET YOU GO... LOOK, I WANTED TO WALK WITH YOU AND I THOUGHT MAYBE WE COULD TALK WITH EACH OTHER HONESTLY...
HERE IS LONDON BABE... HERE IS LONDON BABE...
COME ONNNNNNNNNNNN BABE...
Congratulations DEAR INSANE KEANU: YOU tricked meeeeeeeeeeee with your stupid GAME...
Look: I can not breath IN MY BED due to your weird LOVE.
LOOK: HERE IS ISTAN-BUL. HERE IS ISTAN-BUL...
I really let YOU GO...
THANK YOU...
It was a very magical MOMENT to be close to you... However, I was close to a man who had been in a miserable DISGUISE...
Take Care and STAY AWAY FROM MY BED...
STOP HOLDING ME IN A CRAZY WAY... I CAN NOT BREATH ANYMORE...
FIND SOMEONE ELSE...
TRUE LOVE IS NOT A BONDAGE, TRUE LOVE IS NOT AN ADDICTION. TRUE LOVE IS SOMETHING THAT YOUR LITTLE BRAIL WILL NEVER COMPREHEND. TRUE LOVE IS GIVING YOUR HEART TO SOMEONE WHOMEVER YOU ARE AND WHOMEVER THEY ARE!!!
PLEASE, ENJOY YOUR LIFE AS IT IS...
Bye...
PS: The guy looked like a middle aged man in his body... He said I should work with FBI. I am like a detective...
THANKS REEVES. AT LEAST, YOU VISITED ME...
Since 4 days, I have not slept. I just needed to take a few hours nap. This made me SICK to solve the missing gaps in my PERSONAL life. However, from now on only MY EX BF is my concern. I have no evidence to prove myself that My ex was either a spy or a CLOWN to make me company as if he acted as a real BOYFRIEND. Rather than being a boyfriend, he was like someone close to me. He was like a closed book. Whenever I tried to open the chapters of the book, he used to give only short answers. Obviously, there was something fishy about my EX. Yet, my memory is so good. I started to analyze my EX BF issue and I had discovered many abnormal patterns are involved and IT LOOKS LIKE my PERSONAL LIFE is associated with THE SAME MAN in any unknown situation. It annoys me so much, but I'm not willing to live with a suspicion. Therefore, I have a new goal to DETECT the mellow engagement in the suspicious ACTIONS of my EX BF...
Therefore, the true detective girl will be on a very very significant mission. This time, I will need the help of the spirits and the activation of my psychic frequencies to succeed in seeing a vision of the real MASK of my EX or hearing a spiritual message with regard to the actual truth that has been kept hidden for 13 years. Of course, I do not remember in which places I had been alone when I was dating him, too. I was like a ghost that had been suffering from sleep deprivation. In a nutshell, this new undercover project of mine is a needly requirement of staying away from INTERNET except for my official business correspondences...
Finally, this is the end of the tunnel with the INSANE MAN. Actually, he's just the phantom of the opera and I'm just a turmoil in my own mind. This is the REAL goodbye... I'm a REDUNDANT memory that should be resetted!!!
As he used to say, ONE WORD can tell a thousand words...
REDUNDANT BAGGAGES should be reduced. Thus, we might get an opportunity to clear things out about our own DEEP HURTFUL stagnations...
Ciao!!!
First of all, I'm back to the blog due to my own MISERIES... Otherwise, I would be somewhere else and I would be worried about my own life and health!!! Instead, I like to dig things up and up and up. It is like a constant defection that causes me a very deep depression and melancholy. Nope, I'm never BIPOLAR, but I might show the symptoms of that disease. I might be extremely SICK in the head according to the BUTTERFLY EFFECT MIND CONTROL PROGRAM. LOL! Nothing can make me CRAZY. I'm the only TEST SUBJECT that failed...
There was always a big gap that made me question that the brazilian guy i used to play around was FAKE. I always suspected who is behind this ugly brazilian guy. Of course, I never liked the image of the guy... I'm fucking white and I do not like mixed MEN. :)
The issue has been solved. However, I had dreamt it before and I ignored IT! Then, I dreamt about it again and I learned that the brazilian guy had been hired to be used as a fake image. I talked with the INSANE MAN, and I sent all letters and presents to the INSANE MAN. I have not slept since 3 days at all... That is why I need to write and spit out my ANGER, HATRED and all my other emotions. It is a good therapy. What's wrong with the therapy? Does that phrase make sense? LOL! Between, this blog is only seen BY the insane man. So, I can say WHATEVER I want to articulate. As long as I do not cross the line in terms of an ethical aspect, I'm sure he won't sue me.
The brazilian guy never MET me. I have found this situation mysterious. Why a guy never meets the GIRL? People meet online and they meet each other somehow if they keep up the communication for many years. I always suspected a very very dominant man's words in his letters, too. His words never matched with his looks. Well, at that time I was extremely young and I just played and played...
I had never been in LOVE with this guy. I pretended that I was in love... YES, I regarded him as a back up to Move on From My EX. While I was talking to him, I was constantly messaging my EX, as well... I do not know what kind of game I played with HIM... It was nice to correspond with someone in a romantic way to ease my own grief. Maybe, I valued the guy because I thought he valued me... That is all...
Maybe, I was opening UP for a new guy to fall for. I'm not sure about THAT... These do not matter at the moment. I had learned that the guy was really fake... Behind this guy, there was the INSANE man that I met after this Guy ONLINE. This is INSANE AND this is a CRIME!!!
However, I sent those presents by my heart... Whatever happened happened... The real issue is the insane man has known me since 10 years. This is his insanity level in which he played with me, too. It did not hurt. HE played and HE had been played out... That is fine... Nothing is wrong about this part... If you play a game, you END it. Well, who knows? I could be married, too. Being a virtual boyfriend or girlfriend is never a significant thing at all... When you log out of your computer, you get DISCONNECTED with that person... Who cares? I NEVER CARED. I STARTED TO GET SICK OF THIS BRAZILIAN GUY... THERE WAS SOMETHING MAKING ME BORED ABOUT HIM...
Then, we rarely communicated and it ENDED. What did it end? LOL!!! Let me put IT that way: Our communication and our fights ended... Our game came to an END... WE BOTH GOT CRAZY...
However, this insane man whom is FACELESS has found me online AGAIN... This time, he never showed who he is and he talked to me with his original voice... I suspected that he is a famous actor and I had solved this, as well. I identified the insane man's real identity after watching 200 videos of him and analyzing his lexical ASPECT of articulation. YES, YES, YES!!! I have CAUGHT K so BAD!
All these mysteries had been SOLVED... The true detective has completed her mission! YAY! LOOOOOOOOL...
Yet, is that all? Unfortunately, this is not the ALL. I will solve another mystery regarding my EX BF... Who is behind my ex bf? Was he really a spy of DUMMY K or was he really MY BOYFRIEND? I have a strong gut feeling that K has seen me in a real life. That is what I am very sure... If he hired the brazilian CLOWN, did he hire my EX to spy on me? Did he hire my ex bf to MAKE ME HAPPY? Did he hire my ex BF to reach at me after his leaving me FOREVER? Well, I solved the brazilian CLOWN's case with my gifts of being a real psychic and the AMAZING EVIDENCE of many letters and postcards... I have his ORIGINAL HANDWRITING... What kind of an IDIOT uses his original handwriting to DECEIVE A NAIVE GIRL? LOL!
Eventually, I will figure out the missing GAPS regarding MY DUMB EX, too...
Ciao HACKER BABY!!!
